A day (or two or three) in the life of...

Oh Ok. I went in for my check up w/OB/GYN this morning and all was well except... Apparently I lost 2 lbs. HUH? But... No, your scale. It's broken. It lies! She said it did not lie. I responded "but, no, I mean... All my pants are tight and I have a gut. How's that possible??". She smiled and scolded me lightly on not eating enough for baby and I put together.  Iba? I thought I was upping my calories but maybe it was that I have this skewed mentality that everything but whole grains, light proteins and such was fattening so since I've been 'indulging', I thought that was enough. Apparently, it's not. So, who wants to hit the all you can eat buffet w/me?  Holla! This is what I feel like: This is what Dr. insinuated: Tight pants do not lie. But, ok. I gotta go eat now.

It's happened. In the past week, my belly's managed to pooch out. Now, I realize that I'm now 11+ weeks preggo and that it's expected at around'ish this time but it's also due to my not working out and eating extra calories in the past few weeks. I've been too scared to workout too much before I get into the 1st trimester due to fear that I may do something to break the baby. yeah, I know. Crazy.  But, humor me. I don't want to regret anything and I just want to guard this precious cargo like it's the Hope Diamond because for me, it is. So, pants are tight and I'm tired of sucking in! On Saturday, I was stoopid enough to wear some skinny jeans for a day out with friends (it was a very social weekend w/Cowboy's friends in from out of town as well as Bug's Mama's BBQ gathering on Sat). When I got home, I unbuttoned those bad boys and scurried down the hall towards the bedroom w/them pulled down to my knees. I was SO desperate to get o...

After going to the Dr's and having been worried about no symptoms, JoonBug decided to crank up the hormone response.  Food Aversions are in FULL EFFECT, especially in the afternoon/evening. I find myself not wanting to eat anything because it doesn't sound appealing in the least. The problem with that is that I'm realizing that the longer I wait to eat, the more I start growing nauseous. Oh, I get it! If I don't eat, JoonBug doth protest! Last night, after leaving my acupuncture appt, I knew I needed to get some food and was faced with a game time decision so I ran over to Masala Wok for some grub and hastily ordered the Kung Pao chicken. Look, I needed protein in a hurry and that was the only thing that sounded like it could be palatable. Well, while that was being prepared, I hurried over to Trader Joes to pick up cereal and a tub of animal crackers. Well, I realized I was missing the magical 'EAT!!!' window and my nausea was kicking in so I ripped into the,...

I'm just going to cut to the chase here instead of rambling (heh, yeah right...): I had another debbie downer few days of weeping to Cowboy and telling him that I just don't feel preggers and something must have happened (I'll be needing to stay away from the forums for a bit here) because I had a few good days sans symptoms and I was convinced it was worst case scenario. Sooooooo, off to the Doctor's office I went. Luckily, they were very very cool about calming my nerves and giving the uterus a lil peek-a-boo to see what was up. The Dr. started w/an external ultrasound (over my lower belly) which shocked me that she'd think she'd be able to see anything. Low and behold, we saw the shape of JoonBug and a flash of it's heartbeat. Huzzah! And then she said, "wait, let me go ahead and give you an internal ultrasound so that you can really be at ease and see your lil gummy bear more closely."  I was not prepared for what I saw. People, there is a litt...

Wish I had something more fun to share but lately I'm a bore.  Same food aversions going on. Yesterday I went to Trader Joe's for some healthy fare and was doing well till I hit the frozen aisle. I saw a box of battered shrimp and suddenly heard angels singing and it sounded fantastic! So much for baked fish... Unfortunately, it was not nearly as delicious as it sounded. Cowboy kept trying to get me to eat more last night but everything he mentioned sounded so unappealing that I actually started feeling nauseous. The thing is, I really haven't had any full blown morning sickness, just aversions of an 8 year old who turns their nose up at healthy foods.  Nothing tastes as good as it looks/seems so I'd equate it to trying to smoke an unlit cigarette or dry hump a chair. Completely unsatisfying. Bad analogy? Well, my brain is also out of order lately.  Try having a mature and engaging conversation with me. Just try it! Oh and my emotions are awesome! Last Friday we wen...

It's official, I don't like healthy eats anymore and it's driving me nuts. JoonBug just wants me to eat cookies and candy, fries and chinese food. This is not good, people. I went to my favorite smoothie place for lunch today in hopes of my taste buds obeying me. No, I had to obey them. My wrap was 'bleh'. I ate half of it and tossed the other half out. Now, the cookie that came w/my lunch meal was GREAT! They give you a choice of fruit, chips or cookie w/your meal. I *never* get the cookie because I'm always terrified to gain weight w/extra sugar. Well, um, I need to eat more calories a day now so I giggled and clapped as I loudly said "Oh, Sugar Cookie!", when given the choice. Last night, we went out for a girlfriend's book party , which was soooo much fun! We drove into DC for the event and I got to see my gorgeous ladies. OD'ed on hugs, kisses, laughs and fries... We sat down to order some food and although it was an all organic menu w...

After worrying that JoonBug was on permanent strike and no longer growing in me (this has been a huge worry of mine since the spotting last week) due to my also no longer having *any* preggo symptoms at all, I asked the Dr's office to please check me out. They were actually very understanding about my concern. I told them "ALL of my symptoms have gone away. I've even resorted to pinching my boobs to try to make them hurt and *nothing*! Please show me what's going on inside me womb. So, a very very kind Dr. (they're all females in my practice and so far, all very sweet) came into the office where I was revving to go in the stirrups and asked me what was going on and I told her. She was so sweet and understanding. She had triplets last year. TRIPLETS! So she said it was all still very freshly imprinted in her mind. The fear and worry that you feel, especially in the dreaded first trimester. So, cutting through the chase, she brought out the dildo cam and sure enough,...

cur·mudg·eon /kərˈməjən/ Noun: A bad-tempered or surly person. That is what I was yesterday. A curmudgeon woman whom you did *not* want to cross paths with.  Oddly enough, the day before, I was all lovey dovey, sappy and happy. Even choked up as I sang along to love songs on my to *and* from work. I have had some light spotting this week that convinced me again that this was doomed. bah. stoopid spots. I will now throw out all of my beloved polka dotted clothes because I ban spots in this house! I'll dye Skeeter's hair all black to vanish her spotting too! Called the nurse w/my concern this morning and got the usual: "Brown blood is ok, it means old blood. Since you had your ultrasound earlier this week, it probably irritated the cervix which bleeds very easily now that you're pregnant. Just make sure you're resting, no intercourse, no exercise or heavy lifting that can strain your body even more and monitory the spotting. If it changes to heavy period blee...