A day (or two or three) in the life of...

It's weird to take that pause, look around you and notice things have changed so much. I never really pay attention to the big picture because the change happens so gradually and just becomes the new scenario so quickly that it's just normal. It's the evolution of everyone's lives around me and mine for that matter. What's the same really? Not much. There are a few constants in my life and a few constants in the lives that are in my life but for the most part, everything's shifting. Is it just because I'm about to enter a new decade in my life that it's become more obvious? Probably. People have come and gone into my life, some have left a mark that I've learned from, some keep leaving their mark as we speak (type/read/whatever). My whole perception of everyone is changing too. Not that I love anyone around me any less, if anything, I love those that are very close to me at this time in my life even more just for being there at a time when I actually...

Looks like I gotta do much more travelling. The red states are the only ones I've visited. Sad but true. create your own visited states map or check out these Google Hacks.

A Baby boyyyyy is coming soon to our family. Yipee! No, I'm not preggers yet (;-)). It's Frog's impending bundle of joy that I'm giddy about. He went to a sonogram yesterday w/Medina (his wifey-poo) and Mas (my Mom of course) and he called me in the late afternoon that I was going to be the proud aunty of a Froggy Jr.! Apparently if it was going to be a girl, he would have named her Miriam Cecilia (could he BE any sweeter when he's really sweet???) and now that they've found out it's gonna be a boy, Meddy wants to name him.... Noah. (say it with me) Awww. That's just precious. Soooo, time to start shopping for a baby boy who comes out to join us crazies in late September. Another reason to shop! Wooo hoo! I needed that perk in my week cuz my pissyness was just all over the map. Ooof, these mood swings were just bitch slapping me and everyone around me. Not pretty. This new news (heh, get it Harms, NuNus!) was just what I needed to focus my positive energ...

I haven't planned anything for our wedding in December. December, 6 months away and not a plan in place. I just know where we want it (Cozumel obviously) and the date (December 3rd). Harms is coming over this weekend and making me plan. Thank you Harmsicle. I need a good kick in the ass (in hopes that it will swell to J-Lo proportions or half of that at least) and some motivation to come my way. I don't want to do anything. Maybe I can sign up for one of those TLC surprise planning shows and put my wedding in their hands and hope for the best. Seriously, going to go to the TLC website now and sign up for it. Damnit, I can't figure out how to sign up for this fricking show. Maybe I'll just write the webmaster w/my desperate plea and hope he doesn't put my email in his junk bin. One can hope. FUCK! What am I going to do? Oh yeah, I'll plan this weekend. Though, to be real here, I've been saying that since February. :-) And look how much I've gotte...

Wow, I am a highly motivated person, huh? I thought I was on a mission to lose this weight by my 30th? My changes are....[drumroll please] I gained 2 pounds since the last milestone weigh in a month or so ago! Woo hoo! Give the girl a prize, preferably a good peice of German Chocolate cake. Mmmmm... Ah well. Now if I only had a wardrobe that was a bit more forgiving of my extra pounds, I wouldn't feel so chunky. Mmmm, chunky monkey ice cream! Oooof, love me some sugar. Like a good peice of some Jemmy Pie! RAWR! Though, you're not my type really Jems but I make an exception for you because you leave a tooth brush readily available for the post ass-eating evenings. That's what friends do for eachother. Speaking of ass eating, I wish I had more people closer to my work so that I could rotate having lunch with all my favorite people. I should just have salad for lunch anyways today though, right? Ok, salad and a good grilled lemon chicken breast. Could be a thang. So I was pai...

This article is fucking hilarious! I had to say fucking in this case because just hilarious doesn't cover it and let's face it, this topic is none the delicate one for innoncent ears so ... " It should go without saying that, once he has arranged for a paid lady of the night to meet him at his home, a gentleman does not jerk off several times while awaiting her arrival, in order to "get his money's worth." A gentleman knows that accidents happen. While it is an unfortunate and boorish behavior that should be kept to a minimum, a gentleman always apologizes to a lady after he mistakenly shoots his load inside of her. A gentleman never comes in a lady's eyes. While he knows that a lady gets pleasure out of pleasuring him, and he will occasionally increase the intensity of that pleasure by gentle force, a gentleman will never choke a woman on his cock. If a gentleman wishes to attend to a lady's pleasure through oral manipulation, no matter what ...

Harms found this site on her friend's blog page and I was led to it by a postcard that she showed me from this site. It's addictive. The way that people choose to share their innermost secrets however shameful they may be... It's wild Postsecrets.... Here are a few of my favorites that I found on there.

Now this is great because, isn't this all of us?

Hmmmm...

I Love this.

As you recall, Jems, I was quite moody this afternoon and any and all contact w/people just pushed that mood even further south. It's funny though because my day started off positive and then I had lunch w/a friend, talked to Danny some, IMed w/a couple people and emailed w/a couple more and suddenly I was doused w/negativity. I don't know what happened but suddenly I was neck deep in just some sort of inner pissy-ness that wouldn't budge. Damn. What does this to us? Is it a woman thing? maybe? Is it a Clussy thing, most probably. The thing is, I just kinda snapped at most people today. Sucks to be on the other end of that. Poor Rand came in and asked "What, what happened to you at lunchtime", I said "I went out", he asked "why didn't you ask me?" I replied "Cause I didn't feel like it.". Suddenly he looked at me with this hurt look in his eye and I realized I snapped too far. Damn, that was kinda cold. I mean, yeah i...

I need this. But, it's $75. Hmm...

OK, call me naive and optimistic (that's not so bad, oui?) but I think this is going to be a good week. I'm going to be running tonight with Danny and maybe Ly as well so on the fitness level, that's good. Danny's much more tranquil and at ease with what's going on in his heart though he still is a hopeless romantic and wants his love back but that will take some time and is really in the hands of fate at this point. After spending a lot of the weekend cleaning, consoling Danny and feeling the wrath of my hormonal topsy-turvy, I have a fresh new week to work with here. My house is spotless and looking it's full potential with yellow roses placed around the place to enhance the positive vibe as much as possible, I'm feeling quite idealistically about most things in my life and really feel like I'm on the right track in general. It helped that my Mom and Aunt (my Mom's BFF who's visiting from Bolivia and looks like one of the Desperate Housewive...

A scene from her video with Alejandro Sanz. I thnk she just bit his ear a'la Mike Tyson.

Here's the cover to the CD I need. She is borrowing baby cuz it makes her look more, um, matronly?

My goodness. Me so tired. So, I'll have coffee to get me wired, go home and shower and doll up and get ready for a night filled with 80's tunes, drinking with my Lily flower (Lyly's new indian name) and dancing away the chaos that this week brought with it. The drama began Sunday night (midnight) and ended last night w/a turn down to a proposal, my Danny w/a broken heart but at least he now has a sense of closure and peace that he did all he could and still was met w/the same rejection. That's life and love baby. Fun for the whole family. I've made up with her but still have my pangs of disapproval at the way she went about things. BUT, it's not my place to judge and if I ended every friendship where I dissapproved with the way the person did things, I'd be one very isolated young lady, wouldn't I? ::sigh:: Ah well. Jems, you're going to be such an available person now that your shows are ending, huh? Read your blog and the summary of the shows that ...

Plus, he's married to Bridget so why's he even trying to pick up other chicks? Men...

So not worth fighting for, am I right here? Bleh... I mean, he's fully dressed AND wearing a cowboy hat in a pool (or carribean ocean cave thingy) and looks like a goober to me.

Even in my dreams they cause havok! Lyly and I and our SO's were on a cruise ship and we happen to bump into Kenny Chesney (the only reason I even know this guys' name or face is because he married Bridget), well he starts flirting with Lyly and asking her out but she makes excuses (uh, having a husband is a pretty good/understandable excuse, wouldn't you say?) as to why she can't. So, her and I decide to go shopping (love the stores on the big cruise ships, you can get all the duty free makeup and liquor a girl could dream of) and forget about the Kenny thing. Well, then when I'm off wandering the ship alone, he approaches ME and starts spitting his game (that visual that comes with that phrase makes me laugh, can you imagine going up to a girl and spitting at her to pick her up? Maybe it's done in other countries...) at me and well, I'm kinda digging it so I flirt back, bat my eyelashes, let him kiss me (seriously, I don't think he's cute so I do...

Eh, I'm over it. In hind sight, I know I was harsh on her. She didn't deserve all that and I apologized for hurting her. See what fierce loyalties will do to your judgement? Ah well, I guess we all learned a lesson or two here. Time for these two kiddos to start a long healing process though. Danny's is going to be the longest one here though. The poor guy is in deep denial and he's exhausted from hurting so deeply for the past few days. His head is still racing but his body is taxed. Love sucks sometimes, huh? It should be interesting to see how this all works out in the end. The end? What/when's the end? The end of what? I don't know. The end of the hurting? Nah, I don't think that will ever quite go away in this case. I'd have to say though, for the most part, there's extreme peace with everyone else around me. All seems to be actually well and calm. My family's getting along and talking, there's no tension looming in the air and everyone...

I'm so stubborn. I don't care that I'm judging senselessly w/out giving her the benefit of the doubt. She hurt my 'kin' (I like that word) and through default, I think she sucks. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. I don't really feel like considering her feelings right now because I'm too consumed by how hurt Danny is. It sucks seeing him this way. He's reeling in this pain that is so foreign to him. Do you remember the first time your heart was truly broken? It usually happens earlier in life but for him, this is the first true heartache over a real love and he doesn't know how to handle it so he's lashing out, drinking senselessly and throwing out any insults that come to the tip of his tongue. We've all been there. When's the first time I had my heart broken? Hmm... Actually, though I've been hurt in relationships before, none of those heartaches compared to the pain the took over me when Lu and I split up back in 2000...

Taken from and about.com article on color psychology article . Orange is associated with warmth, contentment, fruitfulness and wholesomeness. It looks strong and generous. Orange is the color most associated with appetite. Orange has a declassifying, broad appeal. It can be used to indicate that a product is suitable for everyone, and can make an expensive product seem more affordable. Here's another color psychology article... Orange Color Psychology - HAPPINESS, CONFIDENCE, RESOURCEFULNESS Orange brings joy to our workday and strengthens our appetite for life! Orange is the best emotional stimulant. Great colour to bring you back to life on a dull, cloudy day. It also helps depression. It connects us to our senses and helps to remove inhibitions and makes us independent and social. Personality Traits: Enthusiastic, happy, sociable, energetic, sporty, self-assured, and constructive. The Spleen Chakra ...

Red is the color that we pay the most attention to. It is the warmest and most energic color in the spectrum. We associate red with love, valentines, danger, desire, speed, strength, violence, anger, emergency exit signs, stop signs and blood. Red can evoke a fight-or-flight response, raise blood pressure and make the heart beat faster. Red would not be the color of choice for psychiatric wards, prisons or a hospital. In China red symbolizes celebration and luck, used in many cultural ceremonies that range from funerals to weddings. In India red is the color of purity (used in wedding outfits).

What makes us love and hate things so? I mean, I absolutely HATE yellow cars and by default, I dislike yellow car owners. When I see someone driving a yellow car down the road, I immediately categorize them into a group of people who just want so badly to be seen and fawned over. By driving this car, they are saying, "Look at me! I have a yellow car and you can't take your eyes off me, so therefore I hold you interest. I am cool, I drive a yellow car.". Yellow car drivers are fucking idiots. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. I've told many people about this opinion of mine before and I have many people disagree with me. I don't particularly care. If you tell me you like yellow cars, my opinion of you is now changed. Sucks, doesn't it? It tells me if you are a self-absorbed waste of my time or if you are a more genuine kind of person that can get someone interested in you by your conversation and inner person instead. I'd like to think the lat...

Tengo ganas de escribir en castellano asi que, aquí va. Estoy teniendo un fin de semana re-lindo. Anoche, como el Lu estaba trabajando hasta tarde, cocine una cena de pollo a la parillada, chorizo picante y un arrozcito por supuesto, y ensendi varias velas por la casa y puse una musica relajante para esperarle al Lu todo listo. Cenamos bien rico y nos tomamos una copita de vino y charlamos por un buen rato. Despues fuimos al Blockbuster para alquilar Vanity Fair con la Reese Witherspoon. Me encanto la pelicula por el tema y ademas, me encantan las peliculas de esa epoca Victoriano. Bueno, la cosa es que despues de la pelicula, le di un masaje bien rico al Lu porque no ha estado dormiendo tan bien en estos dias y queria que se relaje y que pueda tener una buena dormida. Estaba muy tranquila nuestra noche y me senti bien relajada. Que rico es tener asi una noche sin nada planeado y poder pasarla en paz con la persona a quien quieres mas en este mundo. Estuve chocha. Hoy sali con mi Mami ...

China Kitty

The Incan ruins city of Machu Picchu. Amazing that this 'lost city' has been standing since before the 16th century.

Oh, here's another cool one of the Andes

The Andes...

I watched Motorcycle Diaries again last night though this time I watched it with Lu. He remembered me telling him how amazing the movie was and since I piqued his interest, we rented it (loving this Blockbuster movie pass thing). There were just so many parts of the movie where I felt so proud of the beauty of South America. The Andes Mountains that is the stunning backdrop of much of the western part of South America. The scenes when they show the guys awe struck by Machu Picchu really was moving me. Not to mention all the indigenous people they encountered along the way and them telling their story of their struggles and being kicked off their own land. Just makes you think and do some readjustment of our perception of our own personal struggles and how insignificant they are next to what these people have had to gone through. After watching this movie though, I really can't wait to take Lu to Bolivia with me next year so he can be exposed to such a different culture in mo...

It's amazing how we can have these moments where everything seems to be coming to a head and it's not the big things that you can justify being frustrated about but the little petty things that you manage to absorb as days go by. The way this person looked at you, the fact that the grocery clerk didn't say Hi back to you when you smiled at her and said Hi, the way that your sig. other decides to throw your clean underwear in your underwear drawer instead of nicely folding them so that you find yourself doing the same because you don't want to go back and fold every last one of the crumpled under garments so you end up following through with a bad habit that HE started to begin with and you can't even complain about it because you started doing the same! It's after weeks of little things like this piling up (coincidentally right before a period as well, not that this time frame really means anything, right?) that suddenly, you lose it and scream. I usually wait t...

I don't like feeling like an ass who has a friend (or actually 2 friends) keeping obvious secrets from me. What's even more irritating is when you actually know of the secret and you know (or feel) that there is no reason to keep this a secret from me and pretend that I have no idea. That's such a strange thing to feel in my opinion. One of my friends started dating (well, not even dating, more like "talking to" and starting a romantic relationship with) another close friend that I introduced her to. I knew this was going to happen, which is cool because I think they both could have a pretty beneficial relationship with each other, though, this is the 2nd instance of this person dating someone I introduced her to which puts me in a bit of an awkward situation but what the heck. At this point in our lives, the single eligible bachelors are harder to come in contact with, without having to go to a bar to meet them which is not the ideal setting because you go into a...

As you know, Frog has been MIA since January. MIA from everyone, especially my Mom and that has caused her such heartache that I couldn't even describe it. It sucks more so because I am left with the job of picking up the pieces and comforting my severely heartbroken Mom who loves her son more than anyone else in this world (that's right, more than her devoted daughter who hangs on her every last word, oh, maybe not every last word...). When I'd spend time with her, she'd either look tired and sad and 'oh woe is me' about Frog being MIA or she'd put on a temporary smile and then have moments of just staring out into space, racking her brain of what it is she could have done to push her beloved son so far away from her. That is my cue to reach for her hand, give it a squeeze and tell her that he WILL come back around and till then, we have to just hope for the best, concentrate on our positive emotions and not dwell in all the negativity because it's drai...

I was only meant to dress up or really put thought into my gear a couple times a week. The rest of the time I just want to be left to my own devices and wear some fun T-shirts, jeans, shorts or whatever bottoms and flip flops. I love flip flops too. I just feel natural in them. It's funny though because I always take the time to make sure my hair looks alright (not too much effort but well, at least brushing it and making it look kept up) and putting on my lip gloss and curling the lashes. My physical appearance matters to me but my actual clothes are not AS important as long as I have the rest under control. Fair enough, right? I mean, I always make sure I smell good and look a'ight but I just don't want to worry about my clothes. If it happens to work out that my outfit looks good then cool but if not, then ::shrug:: well, that's OK too. Priorities, priorities, right? I've got mine just where I want them. I'm having a nice night in because Lu is bowling with t...

Oh, I need it. Please, oh please get it for me and wrap the DVD of 'The Lover' inside it and I will be a happy, happy monkey spanking, Lover watching girl in my new Living Room!

I like this one. Would Baby J wear it? Tell him I'll get it for him for his b'day.

Jigga what??

ok, ok, what about this one? You can wear this, black trouser socks, and nothing else.

Jems, I really want to get you this. Wear it?

You know, I can't believe I don't own this movie ( L'Amant ) considering it is one of my absolute favorites! The ChinaMan in this film made my blood run about as hot as possible and maybe even planted a seed in me for my preference for the Asian Persuasion (:-D that just makes me giggle. please do not overlook my sarcasm). This is one of the best Erotic Dramas I have ever seen, next to " Henry & June " of course which was another very hot film which made me want to just be in love and be having mad sex until I could no longer move. I wish there were tons more movies in this style of film making and erotica (not the bang, bang, bang porn, though that's thoroughly entertaining as well but not quite AS captivating as a good erotic drama) so that I could build up my collection. In the meantime, I will have to work on aquiring these 2 films for my DVD collection so that I can relive my teenage sexual angst years when all I would do was dream of the day tha...

Here's a little diddy that I found quite interesting and beyond amusing. It all came from me showing my coworker a picture I took of my Quincy (Himalayan cat) licking his kitty balls, or lack there-of actually. Quincy was neutered when he was a kitten but I think he still thinks he's got his 'goods' in tact because he is constantly trying to hump Lexi (our female orange tabby cat) yet she can just keep on sleeping because, well, let's face it, not a whole heck of a lot of action is really going on there. The point is, while I'm telling this story and showing Rand the picture of Quincy mock-licking his kitty 'goods', he decides to share this site with me for " Neuticals ". BRILLIANT! How did I not know this existed? I perused the page and saw the kitty neuticles but noticed they only have 2 x-small sizes. Now, if I invest in getting Quincy a new set of kitty nuts, I think they should be huge and make him feel like he's all male and can do so...